This Girl..

- Senin, 09 Mei 2011


This Girl..
Main Cast: Kim Jonghyun, Han Soojin (FC)
Minor: The rest of SHINee’s member and others
Genre: Angst, Romance, Tragedy.
Disclaimer: I don’t own SHINee, they are SM’s -_- except all fictions character here.
Foreword: This is my first fanfic. WARNING! This fanfic is unbeta-ed, so sorry if you kinda find massive stupid grammatical errors and miss-spell words hehe.

Summary:
“Jonghyun, Move on! I bet she doesn’t want you to be like that as well!”
“No way! She’s totally the same.”
“Can you see and love me as i am? Not the girl in your past?”


CHAPTER 1; Move on, Jjong..

Jonghyun’s POV

This day, exactly our 2nd anniversary. Everytime this day comes, i just feels some parts of my soul has gone. Yeah, she took some parts of my soul.

I was lazy to just opened my eyes, i just want sleep a little longer but Key’s nagging distracted me.

“Hyung, wake up! Don’t pretend like you don’t know we have fansign event today!” he said—almost shout out--while knocking my door.

“I know I know, calm. Just wait!” I said, lazily.

I walked ahead to bathroom and get shower, and blablabla (you know, kinda lazy to describe wkwk)

I opened the door and went downstair to meet the rest of member who waited me. I sit beside Onew hyung silently. They look at me in kinda serious gaze. I know why, it should be because they know today is me and Haejin’s our anniversary. I just ignored them and instead grabbed some bread.

“Are you okay?” Onew hyung asked me.

“Hm..” I replied without look him.

“Doesn’t look you really are, Jonghyun hyung..” Taemin said.

“Really? I’m fine though.” 

“Hyung, it’s already 2 years.” Minho said, look at me with serious look. I know they just cared about me, but I feel they are too much. I becoming angry and shout to them,

“What the heck happened with you all? I’m fine! No need to worry about! I know it’s already 2 years and i still can’t give her away from my mind. Is that my fault? Is that bother you? Just mind your own business!” 

I ran to my room, and locked myself there. I hate them, I hate myself as well. Why can’t i forget her? Why?

“Jonghyun come on, don’t be childish. We just concerned to you. Out and prepare yourself now!” Onew hyung said in front of my room.

I didn’t reply his word. I just lied in my bed and covered my head with pillow. Hope that I didn’t hear anything. Anything. Include that doctor’s said back then.

“Jonghyun, Move on! I bet she doesn’t want you to be like that as well!” Onew hyung’s word echoed in my ear, in my mind.

“Like Minho’s said, it’s already 2 years and it pissed us off looking you still stuck in this moment. She loves you, and she wants you to be happy. And look now, are you happy now? Do you think she will be happy looking at you like this? Crying over and over begging her comeback.” He shouted. 

I think he was too desperate see me down 2 years lately. I felt sorry for him so i opened the door and look at him, stand out with sad look. I felt my tears on my cheek. I hugged him. He hugged me back, tried to comfort me.

“Move on Jjong..” he said in our hug, this time with lower voice.

UPDATE; This Girl

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This Girl
Main Cast: Kim Jonghyun, Han Soojin (FC)
Minor: The rest of SHINee’s member and others
Genre: Angst, Romance, Tragedy
Disclaimer: I don’t own SHINee, they are SM’s -_- except all fictions character here.
Foreword: This is my first fanfic. WARNING! This fanfic is unbeta-ed, so sorry if you kinda find massive stupid grammatical errors and miss-spell words hehe.

Summary:
“Jonghyun, Move on! I bet she doesn’t want you to be like that as well!”
“No way! She’s totally the same.”
“Can you see and love me as i am? Not the girl in your past?”


CHAPTER 2: The Way I Lost Her

Onew’s POV

“Move on Jjong..”  i said in our hug, this time with lower voice.

Jonghyun is too long to suffer. He really love his girlfriend, and when she died, it was like slapped mega zillion times. In the first one month, he kept lock himself in room and sobbing all the time. I can understand what he feels, but not until now.

This is just too long. Just too wrong.

He should move on. I’m not going to tell that he should forget Haejin, no--but what I want to tell is he should try to become happier. 

“Go prepare yourself now, we will go ahead to fansign event soon. Okay?” I told him, he took his hand off from my back and just nodded indicating ‘yes’.

He walked in to his room and i walked downstair. Key, Taemin and Minho stood around dining table and gave me curious face just like asked “what happened”.

“I heard you scream just now hyung. What happened?” Minho finally broke the silence with that question.

“I think we have to support him harder, guys” I said, firmly. They didn’t respond, just nodded.

“Yah! Our van is coming already! Let’s go inside” Taemin screamed when he saw a van parking in front of our dorm.

“Key, ask Jonghyun to be faster” I said to Key.

Key went to Jonghyun’s room and a few minutes later the two boys popped out from dorm and go inside van. We are heading to fansign event as I told before. I hope Jonghyun can be looks happier—or at least normal in front of the fans.
I realeased a deep sighed.

Jonghyun’s POV

I sit beside Key in the van. They were talking about some randoms thing, but I’m not in mood to joined them. I just stared to the outside. My body is here, but not with my mind. I’m thinking about her. Haejin. My love. The one i loved. And, the one left me also.

*flashback*

I ran like crazy guys, ignoring the whole peoples who look at me. The one thing that fulled my mind was her. How could this be? She collapsed in her room!

I pulled hospital’s door without patience, i ran to receptionist.

“Haejin. Song Haejin. What number her room is?” I asked—almost screamed to the woman in receptionist table.

She just stare me shockly. Yeah, i wasn’t wear any disguise outfit so she might be shock looking at me, a SHINee member, exactly stand in front of her. How dare I can still about that thing when my girlfriend lying in hospital weakly?

“Aish. What the number her room is?!” I screamed once again, if i couldn’t control my temper, I would break the table, for sure.

She immediately checked the computer and replied me fastly “134” she said.

Without saying thanks or stuff, I ran to look for room number 134. I ran and ran but, what the heck. This hospital too wide. Crap!

Finally I found room number 130, it should be near from this, I thought.  Not along time later i catched two familiar figures, Haejin’s parent.

“Jonghyun, finally you come” Haejin’s mom said to me. Her eyes was swollen, he should cry the whole day.

“How could this happen? What’s the matter with her? Is she sick or what?” I flooded them with my questions.

“Don’t you know? Doesn’t she tell you about her illness?” Haejin’s dad asked me back. I confused with his question. What? Her illness? I don’t know. What illness that she has?

“What do you mean, uncle?” I asked, hesitationly.

“She.. she.. has a cancer Jonghyun. It’s has been 1 year. And now, she is in critic condition. Her cancer getting danger. Doctor said that she might be not saved. She must be not telling you about this.” 

Her mom explained to me in the middle her sob. What the heck is this? How could she didn’t tell me that!

“She didn’t tell me a thing” I mumble. I don’t realize that I begin crying. No! God, do not take her away from me! My heart screamed.

We waited and waited, i just stand out when I see doctor out from Haejin’s room. I walked toward him.

“How was her condition, doctor? She is alright, isn’t she? She will be able to recover, will not she?”
I asked him. Honestly i was afraid to hear his reply. I was afraid I will hear bad news. Just like her mom’s said, her cancer getting danger.

“Sorry, I have to tell you about this, she might be not saved. You can go inside and look her, but do not too noisy or distract her.” He said while patting my shoulder. Then he walked away, leaving me and Haejin’s parent.

I entered the room silently. It hurted me a lot looking her lying on the bed with pale face. She looks weak. I don’t even expect the reason she looks skinnier lately is because she has cancer. I thought she was too stressed with her job. I don’t expect that it was cancer..

I sit beside her bed. Holding her hands, tightly. For God sake, I don’t wanna lose her. I don’t wanna lose her..

“Haejin-ah, you have to wake up. Wake up and ask apology to me. You should tell me about your condition. So wake up and say sorry to me!” 

Useless. I know, she won’t hear me. 

“I won’t forgive you if you don’t wake up, haejin-ah! Wake up!” I held her hands tigher as I look to the monitor her heart beat getting lower and lower. I couldn’t help myself to not cry.

“Respond me, Haejin-ah. Don’t you think I will leave you like this, you lied on me so you have to say sorry. Wake up and say sorry! “ I screamed.

Haejin’s mom just cry harder see me like this, and her dad pat my shoulder and dragged me to sit on the bench far one from her bed. I just cried and cried until I heard a long beep sounds. I look at monitor and it was showing a long plan line.

She is dead..

*end flashback*

I still look at outside without realizing my tears lay down on my cheeks slowly..
 

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